June 2010
...the rest of the story
Feel like I haven't written anything in forever... not that I've stopped thinking... just working hard all day and crashing at night... :)
...re-connected
It's amazing really... how easily we give up... we hear all these things in our heads.... when a phone call isn't returned... when there is no response to an email... a birthday forgotten (ignored is what we hear)... and the voices play with our rejection and tell us how they really don't care about us... they don't want to have a relationship with me... nobody loves me... everybody hates me... I'm gonna go eat worms... ! :)
...more connections
Connections are way beyond just some important thing we need to do... they are essential to our well being... if I continue along the line that "Philip is the center of his universe".... I will find myself in deep doo... that is a lose/lose proposition... I need others in my life... I need connections...
...the connection
I have been musing about the connection between giving myself to relationships and giving myself to writing these postings... discovering that this is an inner passion for both... and they really are the same... the need to communicate... it's built in... part of the original equipment... we need to say our words... we need to express ourselves to others... both seen and unseen others...
...our anniversary
We celebrated our 41st anniversary today... actually taking much of the day off to go out and do something totally different... we finished up breakfast for Uncle Bill this morning (having been here for his 117th visit to start off the month of June)... how wonderful it is... this one and all the other relationships we have made with so many people over the years who just come back year after year after year....Bill broke all his old records with 5 visits during May!....
....now why don't he write....?
It has been 2 weeks now since Mom died on May 19th... life as we have known it for the past four and a half years suddenly just ground to a halt... I mean everything we have done... every decision we have made.... over those past years has been focused on how Mom would be affected by that decision... it was all about our including her in everything we possibly could... visiting her 3 or 4 times a week... shopping for her... doing her laundry...
