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I promised... so here it is...

I promised to tell you more of the stories about my journey out of rejection 


"The World’s Culture will never bring us into freedom from anything.  The Religious Culture  will only bring us into more bondage and rejection  than we had when we left the World’s Culture…I need to tell you more stories about that."


It was actually the last  Religious Culture that did the most severe damage to me as a person... it was the last "Church"  I was ever to be a part of... become a member of... ever again...

I had been a part of so many different kinds of Churches over 64 years... perhaps I will get to share some of those experiences tomorrow... we shall see... but for now... I want to deal with the rejection  I experienced in that last  "Church" we were a part of... the rejection that brought me to a place where I felt totally useless  to either God or man... the rejection that brought the relentless voice on Route 12 driving to work in Montpelier every morning... "See that... all the leaders recognize that you have absolutely nothing  to offer... you have been forbidden to even be alone with anyone from the Church because you have no life  to offer... because you refuse  to deal with your sin... why don't you just end  your useless life... speed up the car and drive into  that wall of rock..."

It was about a year since we started attending the Church... when we moved to Morrisville to throw in our lot with them.  What I am about to say is in hindsight... I never saw it back then. How the leader would visit me regularly in my restaurant (accepting me not rejecting me)... to the point where I considered him my best friend... I was so desperate  for acceptance and validation... he would even invite me to preach regularly at his Church... I was totally accepted... I saw nothing coming... today I would see it... but not back then...

We started attending the "Church"  in 1994... the more I was accepted by them,  the more involved we got... finally we bought a home in Morrisville...and moved in 1995... once that happened everything changed... the rejection I experienced over the next 5 years there was what had almost driven me off the road into that wall of rock... and by God's great mercy... drove me instead  to my pity party with Him at the picket fence in 1999.

I discovered.... in retrospect ... that when a persons heart is after  God... the "Religious Culture" can find just enough truth about virtually every sin known to man in a person's life... and use it to completely control one's life by using that against us... taking someone's love and desire  for God and using it to control their life...

The leaders saw all the "just enough truth"  sins in my life.... called me on all of them... over and over and over... pride... arrogance ... selfish ambition... anger... pick a sin... any sin.... and I was confronted with it as evidence that I really didn't love  God or desire His life  because I refused  to change... talk about rejection...

I don't think it is edifying to bring up all the varied experiences of that 5 years ...but the rejection was huge and constant...

Upon our arrival in Morrisville... I was no longer invited to preach... I was even  forbidden  to speak out  at any meeting... then... after many confrontations  with me regarding things I said to others in the Church... I was then forbidden  to say anything to anyone in the congregation without prior  approval from the leaders... I could no longer call my best friend at any time day or night... I could no longer just stop by and visit him... all the rules had changed... I now needed an appointment...I had joined  the local body... I was now under the oversight of the leaders... I had now submitted myself to the authority in the "Church"...

It almost killed me... it will never happen again...

"The Religious Culture  will only bring us into more bondage and rejection  than we had when we left the World’s Culture…"

This was the worst bondage and rejection I experienced in my 32 year walk through a large variety of Religious Cultures...

There will be more stories... remember ... there are 8 million stories out there in every life...

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