....stop already with all the building!
Did the same thing as a Christian.....just doing good things to do...how about this Lord or that Lord. He just smiles...loves on us and waits for us to get it! You see...Jesus said that He would build His church... it would be such an awesome thing that when they moved against the gates of hell....the gates would not stand! It would be His design, His direction, His purpose....out of a very deep, intimate personal walk with Him. It would not be Philip the flaming evangelist running around saving the world for Jesus.....just Philip allowing Jesus to live His life in him...being who he is...doing just what he does....where he is....only with Jesus living out His life in old Philip.
The Holy Spirit is the person that works all this out. He does whatever the Father wants....and...we can be sure that what Father wants may just not be what we think...."his ways are not our ways" . Think about the wind metaphor Jesus uses....it blows where it wants....we don't know where it came from and we don't know where it's going....we can't see it....occasionally we feel it or it touches us but it does whatever it wants to do....you know something...I can't control it....and I can't control the Holy Spirit.
Play with that metaphor a little. Think about the constantly changing situations and circumstances in your life. Think about all the plans that never happened....all the dreams....all the things we have perfectly figured out. Maybe...maybe....if we stopped all our building projects...we might just be able to relax and enjoy the wind.