...every single thing
Ever since I said it... my brain has been going non-stop... it's hard to get to sleep at night... so much running thru the tree tops... especially since I said this a couple days ago ....
"... but today… I know… that He sovereignly works all things… as in every ugly horrible messy thing… together for good… according to His purpose… not my purpose."
...tonight again... it's almost mid-night and I finally decided to just start writing about it... see where it goes...I had been really tired at 8:30... just kinda vegging... waiting for 9:00 to happen so I can feel free to go upstairs and crash... let the answering machine handle any calls... pick-up the emails in the morning... only problem is.... I can't fall asleep.
I mean it's not like absolutely everything is totally horrible messy or something... our friends the Hallers from NH came up for a couple days of R&R... we went out to dinner last night... just enjoying them... we invited two other couples to join us for dinner here tonight... it was great... I don't know... maybe having Rwandan coffee after dinner has something to do with it tonight......
there are some tough ones too...like maybe it's my friend Darryl basically in hospice with everybody asking the Lord for a miracle... seems like the whole world is praying for Darryl and Martha and the family right now... also seems like this has been going on forever at this point with no resolution either way... that's all been pretty draining......
then there are Randy and Peggy going thru the loss of Randy's mom... even when you are expecting it and waiting for it... it doesn't make the separation any easier... there is the grieving... and we grieve with them...
... silly things happening in the B&B... yay/boo kind of stuff this week like hasn't been in a while... feeling bad for my wife after her 36 hour travel ordeal... as she tries to get her body back into some kind of sync.... and with all this stuff going on... I'm pretty emotionally wrung dry... having my best buddy back is great... what a relief... like I suddenly crashed... coming off the adrenaline rush of keeping everything going by myself the past 4 weeks... it's like I ran into the wall or something... and now I can't sleep.... :)
Maybe it has something to do with that whistleblower burden I carry... constantly seeing things... keeps me pretty occupied asking the Lord all about it... interceding for the things He shows me... hearing what I need to do with all of it... if anything...
That's why it is so great to know that it is all going to work out.... just the way the Lord wants it to work out... His purpose in all of it just hasn't been totally revealed yet... but it will come.... this season will end... and a new one will begin.
:)
"... but today… I know… that He sovereignly works all things… as in every ugly horrible messy thing… together for good… according to His purpose… not my purpose."
...tonight again... it's almost mid-night and I finally decided to just start writing about it... see where it goes...I had been really tired at 8:30... just kinda vegging... waiting for 9:00 to happen so I can feel free to go upstairs and crash... let the answering machine handle any calls... pick-up the emails in the morning... only problem is.... I can't fall asleep.
I mean it's not like absolutely everything is totally horrible messy or something... our friends the Hallers from NH came up for a couple days of R&R... we went out to dinner last night... just enjoying them... we invited two other couples to join us for dinner here tonight... it was great... I don't know... maybe having Rwandan coffee after dinner has something to do with it tonight......
there are some tough ones too...like maybe it's my friend Darryl basically in hospice with everybody asking the Lord for a miracle... seems like the whole world is praying for Darryl and Martha and the family right now... also seems like this has been going on forever at this point with no resolution either way... that's all been pretty draining......
then there are Randy and Peggy going thru the loss of Randy's mom... even when you are expecting it and waiting for it... it doesn't make the separation any easier... there is the grieving... and we grieve with them...
... silly things happening in the B&B... yay/boo kind of stuff this week like hasn't been in a while... feeling bad for my wife after her 36 hour travel ordeal... as she tries to get her body back into some kind of sync.... and with all this stuff going on... I'm pretty emotionally wrung dry... having my best buddy back is great... what a relief... like I suddenly crashed... coming off the adrenaline rush of keeping everything going by myself the past 4 weeks... it's like I ran into the wall or something... and now I can't sleep.... :)
Maybe it has something to do with that whistleblower burden I carry... constantly seeing things... keeps me pretty occupied asking the Lord all about it... interceding for the things He shows me... hearing what I need to do with all of it... if anything...
That's why it is so great to know that it is all going to work out.... just the way the Lord wants it to work out... His purpose in all of it just hasn't been totally revealed yet... but it will come.... this season will end... and a new one will begin.
:)
