... more thoughts on death and dying
Today that was rolling around upstairs about how the last years of that course were so full of pain for her.... very difficult... how stoic she was with it all... it did regress from "Oh Philip... it hurts so much..." with that grimace I had seen so many times... to just moans of pain when Lin was here... just a few weeks ago.... not a fun remembrance for her.
I have an appointment at 1:00pm today with our doctor... Dr. Kiely... I had told him during my last visit just how much I appreciated him... especially for his care of Mom through all of these four and a half years... I told him he is the only professional I have ever had an appointment with... that puts me totally at ease... every time I would see him I would feel as though this appointment was absolutely the only thing he had to do all day... what a gift that is... I have worked hard at trying to emulate that... every time anyone comes to visit me... I really try to turn off all the other switches.... shut out all the stuff clamoring for my attention.
I wanted to share with you any illustration of that... of the kind of guy Phil Kiely is... these are the thoughts he penned in a beautiful condolence card he sent to us....
"Dear Phil and Ellen: I am so sorry for your loss. Your mother was a paragon of grace... a throwback to another time. How she managed all those years with all that pain is a mystery. I truly enjoyed her. My thoughts are with you and your family. Phil Kiely"
Like I said... he is a very special kind of doctor... think I may just tell him that again when I go for my appointment... when once again he will come into the examination room... and once again I will think that he has absolutely nothing else to do for the rest of the day.