...life...mom...and other things
After going on a bit yesterday about the war....I was Musing about it again today... I mean I taught about the war... preached sermons about the enemy... was part of conferences about the war... and I was totally clueless... I was religious... I didn't really get it until January 2006 !
Somehow present day Christianity has come to the conclusion that somehow no evil is ever to come upon me ever again... all I have to do is believe enough... pray enough... do enough... and somehow magically all my problems will disappear for ever and ever.
To me then... that means... everything depends upon what I do... sorry... nothing depends upon me and my doings... everything depends upon God and His doings... and if there is one thing I have learned over the last 42 years... it is this... God doesn't always agree with my plan for the rest of my life and everyone else's life.... my plan for every situation and circumstance in life.
We say that God is in control of absolutely everything... but when things do not go the way I want... obviously something is wrong... so I beat myself up that somehow I should have prayed more... fasted more... or done more... it must be my fault ... I must have somehow said or thought something that has brought unbelief into the situation... on and on we go... rationalizing and excusing the lack of God's doing what I want Him to do... because somehow it all depends on me... how sad that is...
That brought me to thinking about Mom.... so often we want to hang onto those we love... like they should live forever... when in fact it is very clear that there is a time to live... and a time to die... that time does not depend upon us... those are things that are "in the Father's hand" ... they are not determined by us...
I was actually begging the Lord to take Mom... get her past all the pain.... all the suffering... He did not do that... until it was His time.... until May 19th... that was the day that He had ordained... that is the day that He sent His Son to escort her out of that container of pain and suffering that was her body here on earth... I know He took her to an incredible place...that is a good thing... not a bad thing...
I wonder some times if Christians really believe that.... "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" (1 Cor. 2:9)
:)
Somehow present day Christianity has come to the conclusion that somehow no evil is ever to come upon me ever again... all I have to do is believe enough... pray enough... do enough... and somehow magically all my problems will disappear for ever and ever.
To me then... that means... everything depends upon what I do... sorry... nothing depends upon me and my doings... everything depends upon God and His doings... and if there is one thing I have learned over the last 42 years... it is this... God doesn't always agree with my plan for the rest of my life and everyone else's life.... my plan for every situation and circumstance in life.
We say that God is in control of absolutely everything... but when things do not go the way I want... obviously something is wrong... so I beat myself up that somehow I should have prayed more... fasted more... or done more... it must be my fault ... I must have somehow said or thought something that has brought unbelief into the situation... on and on we go... rationalizing and excusing the lack of God's doing what I want Him to do... because somehow it all depends on me... how sad that is...
That brought me to thinking about Mom.... so often we want to hang onto those we love... like they should live forever... when in fact it is very clear that there is a time to live... and a time to die... that time does not depend upon us... those are things that are "in the Father's hand" ... they are not determined by us...
I was actually begging the Lord to take Mom... get her past all the pain.... all the suffering... He did not do that... until it was His time.... until May 19th... that was the day that He had ordained... that is the day that He sent His Son to escort her out of that container of pain and suffering that was her body here on earth... I know He took her to an incredible place...that is a good thing... not a bad thing...
I wonder some times if Christians really believe that.... "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" (1 Cor. 2:9)
:)
