...let me tell ya 'bout druthers... :)
I can't tell you about your druthers... but I can sure tell you about mine... the things that I would like to see happen are always very positive things... never negative things... I really really want all the wonderful things that I desire... those desires that are in my heart... and guess what... wow... I suddenly discover that God wants to give me the desires of my heart... whoa baby... how can it get any better than this.... oooops... there is a problem here, Houston... it is my heart.... my heart is a problem... :)
You see... all my desires revolve around me.... and all those selfish desires need to be buried in the ground .... where they die...where God puts me through the death process... replacing my selfish heart of stone... with His heart... putting into me... desires I would never have even thought about before... things like living my life for others instead of myself... that was never on the top of my heart's desires list.... didn't even make it to the "bucket list" either.... :)
Philip desires what? .... Reality is what?
Success ... gets failure.... no pain... gets lots of pain... never sick... gets lotsa sick... to make lots of money... joking me right?... never want to run into any ugly type people... to never be used by anyone... never get mad at anyone... never have anyone get mad at me... I want the removal of all problems... every obstacle... nothing should ever go wrong... come on... let's be honest... I do not want any hassles in my life ever... and what is the reality of that... constant hassles.... :)
My collision with God did not change any of that stuff.... my collision with God has changed me... inch by inch and row by row... from hassle to hassle... failure to failure... disappointment to disappointment... it is called life... life is like that... it's designed that way.... it brings me to that place of death... it needs to... in order for Him to live....
And my desires? I don't have any... just Him.... all that other stuff means absolutely nothing...
I'm thinking of a time when absolutely the only thing that satisfies me.... is Jesus... certainly not what He does or doesn't do for me.
:)
You see... all my desires revolve around me.... and all those selfish desires need to be buried in the ground .... where they die...where God puts me through the death process... replacing my selfish heart of stone... with His heart... putting into me... desires I would never have even thought about before... things like living my life for others instead of myself... that was never on the top of my heart's desires list.... didn't even make it to the "bucket list" either.... :)
Philip desires what? .... Reality is what?
Success ... gets failure.... no pain... gets lots of pain... never sick... gets lotsa sick... to make lots of money... joking me right?... never want to run into any ugly type people... to never be used by anyone... never get mad at anyone... never have anyone get mad at me... I want the removal of all problems... every obstacle... nothing should ever go wrong... come on... let's be honest... I do not want any hassles in my life ever... and what is the reality of that... constant hassles.... :)
My collision with God did not change any of that stuff.... my collision with God has changed me... inch by inch and row by row... from hassle to hassle... failure to failure... disappointment to disappointment... it is called life... life is like that... it's designed that way.... it brings me to that place of death... it needs to... in order for Him to live....
And my desires? I don't have any... just Him.... all that other stuff means absolutely nothing...
I'm thinking of a time when absolutely the only thing that satisfies me.... is Jesus... certainly not what He does or doesn't do for me.
:)
