I did promise I would try to get back to this "contradictions"  thing.... I had just said something that appears  to be a contradiction... at least to my rational mind  it seems to be a contradiction:

 "I wrote to you that God doesn’t care  about our actions… today I am writing to you that God cares so much about our actions… that He sent His only Son to die because of those actions… and it’s not  a contradiction…"

Come on, Philip... either God cares  about our actions or He doesn't care  about our actions....  How about both...?

I know that He cares  about us.... that He wants  to have a relationship with us...and I can refuse that relationship... that His Son did die  so I could live  in spite of all my crummy actions... and I can refuse to accept that one too... so when I refuse  His life... the only life  that can actually set me free  from my crummy actions... He no longer really cares about those actions.... because He knows  there is only my own will power  to stop those actions  ... He knows that won't work... He knows  I can't stop them without  the life of His son... I tried stopping  all the crummy actions the first 32 years of my life.... it doesn't work...

Since He cares so much about me... the actor... the dude that can never stop  all the crummy things I am doing... He wants me to receive the life of His son... the one life that can change all that in me... that makes it possible ... bit by bit... to change me into the image of His Son... so I can have a deeper and deeper relationship  with Him... so He can bring me into His eternal purpose  for my life...

All the things that are going on  in my life... are going on in order to  change me.... in order to prepare me  for His plan and purpose in eternity.  To me... there is no contradiction here.

To me... it is all pretty cool...

:)