...many years ago
I think I have gone full circle back to 1969 when I first touched the "Deeper Life" authors... like Sparks, Grubb, Nee, Murray, Penn Lewis,, and all.....
This is from Grubb's daily morning reading... he is talking about
".....the long period that it took (takes...ed note...:) for God to get a person to discover his insufficiency…to break to pieces his self-reliance…and then to replace it by God-reliance. And God-reliance is union. In every case you’ll find great moments when these men came out into union. But the union couldn’t be realized until the man had become the nothing so that God could become the everything. It couldn’t! You cannot know a free Christ inside you until you’ve been freed from yourself. You can’t know two people inside at the same time. You can’t know the indwelling Christ in His liberated presence conveying His mind to us, conveying His Word to us, conveying His power to us, and conveying His beauty and purity to us unless we’ve first of all been through that basic experience which has put out the self-sufficient self. "
.... this translates for me today.... something completely different than it did back then in 1969... back then ..when I got to that understanding in my head... it meant my release to do wondrous things for God.... wanting nothing more than Him living in me to accomplish those great things He had called me to do...
... today.... it has finally brought me to simply being who I am... where I am... with no need to do anything for God... finally discovering that He is quite able to do whatever He wants without me... what an incredible place of peace and rest... just enjoying Him in whatever it is He is going to do today...
:)
This is from Grubb's daily morning reading... he is talking about
".....the long period that it took (takes...ed note...:) for God to get a person to discover his insufficiency…to break to pieces his self-reliance…and then to replace it by God-reliance. And God-reliance is union. In every case you’ll find great moments when these men came out into union. But the union couldn’t be realized until the man had become the nothing so that God could become the everything. It couldn’t! You cannot know a free Christ inside you until you’ve been freed from yourself. You can’t know two people inside at the same time. You can’t know the indwelling Christ in His liberated presence conveying His mind to us, conveying His Word to us, conveying His power to us, and conveying His beauty and purity to us unless we’ve first of all been through that basic experience which has put out the self-sufficient self. "
.... this translates for me today.... something completely different than it did back then in 1969... back then ..when I got to that understanding in my head... it meant my release to do wondrous things for God.... wanting nothing more than Him living in me to accomplish those great things He had called me to do...
... today.... it has finally brought me to simply being who I am... where I am... with no need to do anything for God... finally discovering that He is quite able to do whatever He wants without me... what an incredible place of peace and rest... just enjoying Him in whatever it is He is going to do today...
:)
