Of course this container  I've been talking about the past few days is all excited now that he has 2 drops of living water in his glass... wow... just think of that... Philip meets  God and he is then instructed  (taught) ... to go out  and pour living water into the rest  of the human race... say what?... both drops of water?... you gotta be kiddin'  me... what is wrong  with this picture!

Does anyone besides me see the absurdity  in that.... I have an almost empty  container... the rest of the container is filled with  "Hot Air Philip" ... did you know that the whole human race has been just anxiously...eagerly.... waiting for me... just so I can explain  to them how they also can receive 2 drops  and then be as wonderful as I am... I am after all  Philip the flaming evangelist ... what baloney... the only thing I am full of...  is myself...... my wonderful new zeal... my new importance... my new found arrogance  that God was so smart  to select someone as gifted  as Philip.... in order for him to help Jesus  save all them thar other poor folks  out there...ugh!.... hopefully you've gotten the point by this time....  :)

It affects... it permeates... every area  of our Christian life... we never grow up... we somehow assume the responsibility  of everything... of saving people... of getting rid of sin in our lives... our maturity... it is as if everything depends upon us....somehow it depends on my  labor... my  zeal.... my  prayers... my  fasting... my  study of the Word... my effort... my stress.... my revelations... my  teachings... my  programs... my  methods... my  convincing others... my  presentation...  my  salesmanship...  my.... my.... me... I... me... my...... more ugh!    I keep sayin' it... about how I didn't learn this stuff by reading about it in a book about Christian growth... or sitting down in some meeting somewhere.... I learned by doing it that way...  by messing it up.... by wounding people.... by doing it wrong.... over and over and over...

That was the death process... the over and over and over thing.... but each time... after each death....  there would be a  few new drops  in the container... life comes out of  death... life comes out of  Philip coming to the end of himself....

Still more to come....

:)