Took some more time to try to figure out how to say more...and use less words... really am working at it... not exactly the same as being successful at it....

You know... like all the things I keep seeing about how free isn't really free... and if it's free then it has no value to us... have you ever thought about that?

The one that really grabs me is how I used to present the Gospel to people... that it was free... absolutely free... God paid the price... it costs us absolutely nothing...

and now I have a Christianity that is totally free... and has no value. Hmmmm....

Maybe... just maybe... it is supposed to cost me everything... my very life... then maybe it will have some value... let me think about that a little more....