Another word I use to throw around a lot was my calling?  What had God called me to? That was a no brainer... I had learned pretty quickly that the highest calling was to be a preacher... to stand in a pulpit and preach the gospel... and if God was going to call me to something, I wanted it to be the highest calling... the best... I wanted to be the best of the best...God had obviously called Philip ...to be a preacher... what's wrong with that.?... you mean besides everything... besides everything being wrong with that?

It takes us away from what our calling truly is... our calling is so simple... all of us are called to just follow Jesus... that is not complicated... and it keeps the focus where it belongs ..on Him.

All this other baloney of being called to this or to that or the other... I am called to be a prophet... an apostle... a missionary.. a businessman...an evangelist... pastor... king... teacher.... Mr. Super Christian... all of that stuff... sorry...it is all baloney!

It turns me in on myself... makes me the focus...instead of Him...it then becomes all about Philip... my calling... about who I am... what I do... my gifts... God's need of me to fill this void in His body...... what do you think I am really after in all that...?   hmmmm?  it is my own self gratification.... it is getting my identity in what I am doing.... how important I am to God... my lust for recognition....

I didn't read about this in a book... I learned it by doing it... by allowing death to rule in me... instead of His life...and all of it needed to go to the cross... not a pleasant process... but so very necessary...