So where do I go  from here?  Now what?  What more can I say after last time? There is just so much more.... more and more and more...to experience every single day... more than I can think... more than I can imagine... more than I will ever know... and there is absolutely nothing I have to do... to make any of it happen... so now what?

I guess that's why I haven't written in so many days... I keep seeing all these things ... and remain clueless how to communicate any of it... I keep experiencing more and more as each day goes by... but have no idea how to express what is going on...

It's a great place to be... this place of feeling totally helpless... and realizing that nothing depends on Philip... there is nothing the old fella has to do any more... just be who I am... where I am... enjoying every minute of it... totally content... it almost seems unfair...