so.... after finally getting to tee off on that memorable day.... I spent the next couple of hours trying to hit golf balls and talking to the Lord about all my complaining and attempts at manipulating...  before getting to the real issue... that thing in Philip that does everything right while looking down at all the people who don't do things the way I do them... right....which of course means they do everything wrong.... ugh!

"So how are you going to put this thing to death, Lord?" 

It was very clear what had to happen. It started with... Philip seeing that Philip is the problem... not all the other people.... seeing that Philip is wrong...Philip is not right... admitting it to myself first... then admiting it to the Lord and asking Him to  forgive me... then the final humiliator of going to the starter and telling him I was wrong... apologizing... no excuses... I was just flat out wrong... and telling him I would never act like that again...

a very big area of my natural man went to the cross that day... it was put to death...

this was the process for this one... just one of many... there are always more to discover... it is all part of the journey... the journey into Him...