What if it's not really true... you know ... that stuff I was taught... the things I was told by the folks who know these things... you know... the answerman folks.... those professionals who have all the answers to everything....... what if that stuff was actually a lie... what if I tried harder and harder to stop acting in a certain way and it would never work.... what if I was worse off even than I was before I started trying.... what if I tried really realy hard to change the way I felt about things... my attitudes... my motives... what if I tried and tried and tried....

it wouldn't help....it was destined for failure....

Philip will be what he is... a natural man... till the day he dies... the day of his physical death... until then he can only experience spiritual death to that natural man.... inch by inch... row by row.... and that one works!

All this to say that what I wrote about yesterday.... that death was NOT the total picture for that area of my life... just a piece of it... it was not the end of that area....for forever ever....it was just another inch...

      more on the 'morrow...