Yes... I did say that yesterday... I said that is good news...when I finally get to the point where I stop blaming everybody and everything else for my addictions.... I finally see it... I finally see that I just can't stop doing the things I don't want to do... I see that I am hooked... there is a hook in me and it's got me... just pull on that hook a little... give it a jerk and off I go... I really see that there is absolutely no way I can stop.... that's the good news....

God gave us the 10 Commandments not so some religious system could make us feel guilty because we were unable to live up to that code... God gave them to us to show us that it is totally impossible to live that way... not ever...I will be me till the day I die...that's one reason why it's good news... I can finally stop trying to stop doing  things I an incapable of stopping...things that are part of that natural me I've been trying to tell you about...

This thing affects every area of our lives... which is why we need to have a relationship with Jesus ... the other side of that good news... we can have a new birth... a spiritual birth... where we can start to function out of our spiritual man as our natural man dies... a very long process... it takes us the rest of our physical life... and we are still learning... on every level... we never arrive... we never get our act together...

I only realize it after it happens... after I experience it... and it's always something different ... every single day... take yesterday for instance...

I know... in my head... all about how when I die I am going to leave this physical dimension and see Jesus face to face in a whole other dimension...a spiritual dimension ....no problem there... but I do not know in my heart... how I will respond till I am actually faced with the prospect of dying... I faced it about a year and a half ago when I had my heart zapped... to try to get it out of A-Fib into a normal rythym ...

I was really pleased with how I came thru that experience... very low level of fear... peace level was good... I was blessed...now I have a chance to watch my response once again... yesterday the doctor told me my heart went back into A-Fib... so I get yet another opportunity to walk out yet another level of facing physical death... knowing in my heart I will have another exciting death experience in my natural man... and another exhilarating life experience in my spiritual man...

so far so good... I am really blessed... looking forward to all that the Lord has for me in this new experience... as I walk along with Him each day...