All this blowin' around stuff... there is a lot to this... it's part of what keeps us from ever growing up... actually I was clueless even what growing up looked like... till just a couple years ago... now I am getting a little glimpse of it after 43 years of walking with God... I needed to get stable... but didn't know how... nobody ever told me I was unstable...

All that blowin' about is what ended up making me "unstable in all my ways"... all that tossing about had me confused even about what I believed... and "the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind".... one day it is this way... then another day it is that way... I became what the scripture calls double minded  ... all the time thinking I was mature...

"He is a double minded man, unstable in all his ways."

Everybody told me I was mature...Philip sure thought he was mature... after all... I was almost 50...that was certainly getting on in years... I had been following the Lord for over 15 years... I was pastoring a large successful church... I mean come on... a leader... doing great things for God...

That all had to come to an end... or I would never even begin to discover what maturity is... or how God actually brings someone into it...

it's quite a trip... takes a long long time.... starts with realizing how badly I missed it... when here I was...thinking I was right out there on the cutting edge of God's purposes... almost 30 years later.... in His mercy... He is giving me a tiny little peak at His purposes... and they look nothing like anything I was ever taught or believed before... pretty exciting...