I wrote it on Wednesday... about how triumph or disaster are both imposters and how we need to treat them both the same... so Thursday of course was D-Day here... Disaster Day... for Philip...big time... one disaster after the other... that's how it works... when I say it... then the test comes... do I really believe what I say?... how will Philip respond?... is it in my heart?... or just some philosophical quip I use... you know... to show everybody how smart I am... like Philip reads Rudyard Kipling... wow!

I would love to say I totally passed each new craziness test with flying colors... but I didn't... had to make lots of choices...it did get easier and easier to make the right ones... to suck it up... and treat the next disaster imposter just like I treat the good imposter things when they happen one on top of another... just take them one at a time...deal with them... treat them both the same... and just get it done... no big highs... no big lows... just deal with them both  the same... knowing I am in charge of nothing... it will all sugar down... and work out the way it is supposed to work out... it always works out that way... the way that He has designed it to work out...

But how do you know it's all going to work out?.... it begins with it not having to work out the way I think it should...

may I quote one of my favorite lines from the movie "Shakespeare in Love"... where the guy keeps telling everybody not to worry about the latest disaster... because it will all work out... and they say "But how?... But how?"

And he replies... with a beautifyl shrug of his shoulders... "I don't know... it's a mystery"

And it is... an awesome... incredible... mystery...