My Second Epiphany
All that doing kept me pretty busy....Phil Wolff.... Gods man of faith and power... busy for God..... had a 9000 square foot Christian Bookstore, managed four 6-bedroom apartments we owned, and 3000 ft rental to an auto parts store, had my own radio broadcast and managed two other shows. When CBN wanted to put their "700 Club" on TV in the metropolitan New York City area, they asked who they would need to talk to in the area that "got things done" ... of course they got the same name everywhere they asked...talk to Phil Wolff!
Next thing you know, there are 20 phone booths in the basement of our Bookstore, I am training 100 phone counselors and setting up a network of 250 churches to handle the thousands of referrals coming in over the phone. Then I heard the teaching on "the perfect Church, gave away my empire in order to pastor the perfect church for the next 10 years, developed our own Bible Training Center, our own Domestic Service where we touched hundreds of people by providing reliable, trustworthy persons to reasonably clean homes all over Bergen County New Jersey........ planted Churches in New Jersey, Vermont and London....we were a busy bunch of people.
Remember that burned out wreck in 1999 that I talked about.....same guy some years later, after going and going and doing and doing.... there I am at the fence .... crying out to God....."I don't get it, Lord. All I ever wanted to do was serve You....look at me now. I'm a mess. Rejected, depressed, no more joy, no more anything....totally useless to You or anyone else." I was having a real good, old fashioned pity party :)
I even asked Him if I was still a part of the Body of Christ... maybe some useless nodule in the armpit that could just be snipped off and nobody would know the difference. I mean, this was a big-time pity party. :)
Then He spoke to me (one of my few audible voice experiences) and said to me: "Philip, I never asked you to do anything for me..... all I ever wanted was a relationship with you!"
I was mush....... I became Philip that day. I saw the last 32 years of my life in like an instant panorama before my eyes.... the revelation came.....everything changed for me in that instant......another Epiphany that has never stopped since that day.